This weekend I was a featured LA blogger for Miss Dunnie O’s Tweet&Greet at Philippe Chow (pictures will come soon), and I surprised myself. I took a huge risk and stepped outside of my comfort zone.
First, let me say, we all have our insecurities and hang-ups and that’s what has encouraged me to share mine with you in this post.
Ever since junior high I have been extremely insecure about my arms, if nothing else on my body. Between the stretch marks and half dollar size mark on my right arm from catching ringworm at a slumber-party (I don’t want to talk about) I would always (and I do mean always) wear some type of jacket or sweater no matter the time of year. Over the years, I did get better and felt free enough to wear short sleeves, but sleeveless wasn’t going to happen… until this Saturday’s event.
What made me change my mind now? You’re probably wondering.
1) Well, being that my time was limited and my finances were too it put me in a position where a dress with sleeves was out of the question. Either, its a little pricey or frumpy, not to mention I’m still learning how to shop with these few extra pounds I’ve put on lately.
2) I realize how stupid I look sometimes with a jacket on with certain things, like a beautiful dress.
3) Nobody cares, except the haters. I’m 25 years young and if I’ve learned nothing else from living is that people are going to talk regardless, so sometimes you just have to give them what they want.
4) I’m beautiful regardless! I have never questioned how beautiful my face is nor my personality. (My body is another story). I have to live life to the fullest and not buying a beautiful dress that not only fit me wonderfully, but was very much in my budget because its strapless would have been just plain ‘ol dumb!
Another hang up I have is that I am extremely shy. I honestly get anxiety sometimes when it comes to meeting new people, but I also had to get over that. People are humans just like me and God has not given me the spirit of fear. I was proud of myself for walking up to a couple people and introducing myself. I actually had good conversation with them too.
I am plus size and have been for quite some time, but I’ve realized that people will treat you plus size if you give off that energy. I put my insecurities behind me and just went with the flow. I got some really good feedback and met a lot of incredible people that night.
Overall, I’m just learning to be comfortable in my skin regardless of this, that, and the other. I hope that I encouraged you to do the same. Will I ever have the body I dreamed of? Maybe, maybe not, but that doesn’t mean I can’t love the body I’m in now. Happiness truly starts within because you can have everything and still be unhappy.
What are your insecurities and fears? Have you stepped out of your comfort zone lately?